On Loss / by Adam Mathieu

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Artists can have many different themes or subjects they revisit over and over. I’m one of those artists that keeps talking about death. To get specific, it’s always someone I knew and how it sticks with me.

Joe, my brother, died 11 years ago to this day.  I’ve used art as a means to air out the sadness, guilt, and questions that have been in my mind since that day. Sometimes it actually helps. Other times it doesn’t make a lick of difference.

I’ve mostly stuck with performances about his death to help me come to terms with the loss. Of course, I don’t anticipate any one thing to reconcile this loss but I do believe it helps me deal with it in piecemeal.

This Cyanotype was made in 2015 and it was my quick attempt to show the loss of a family member. In this case two younger brothers losing the eldest. I want to say the inspiration came from a line in the Arcade Fire song “In The Backseat”:

“My family tree's

Losing all it's leaves

Crashing towards the driver's seat

The lightning bolt made enough heat

To melt the street beneath your feet”

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